Isnin, 30 April 2007

Seven Things...

7 things to do before i die:
- mintak mahap ngan semua orang...
- bayar hutang...
- kahwin...
- sedekah banyak2...
- taubat...
- pergi haji...
- tour europe...



7 things I can't do:
- diet...
- sambung study...
- fokus...
- ngorat stranger...
- makan lauk lunch untuk dinner...
- bermuka manis kepada org yg aku x suka...
- melupakan seseorang...



7 things that attract me to Europe:
- english premier league
- hot spanish chicas
- paris...
- venice...
- ancient greek history...
- russian babe...
- french kiss..?



7 things I say:
- pusing2 kat situ gak...
- siyol...
- kimek...
- chi bye...
- agak2 wa so hai lu pek kepala gua...
- boring giler...
- life's like that...



7 good books:
- da vinci code...
- rich dad poor dad...
- legenda budak setan...
- abel & kane...
- being happy...
- 7th habit...
- simplify your life...



7 good films:
- bujang lapuk...
- sepet...
- school of rock...
- prime...
- crash...
- forest gump...
- truman show...



7 blogs to tag:
- sapo2 yo la...

Mr Brightside...

Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep...

Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his-chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go...

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside...

:D


Sabtu, 28 April 2007

is this love..?


i just realize that i'm still in love with her...

even though we agree that it's over between us...

we still remain friends and texting each other sometimes...

i'm still questioning myself, "why did i proposed to her..?"

the answer is easy, " i thought she was the one..."

she could say no but she didn't...

i shouldn't ask ridiculous things from her...

and my mother should accept her regardless of what people gonna say...

things happen for a reason, rite..?

i'm only praying for the best...



:)



Jumaat, 27 April 2007

andai ku tahu...

lagu ni first time aku dengar ada satu malam jumaat tue... suria fm kot... x leh tido, so aku radio surfing... heh... agak insap gak ar lagu ni... teringat dosa2 yang lalu... sempat ke aku tobat...? ada syurga lagi ke untuk orang macam aku ni..? entahlah... harap2 aku sempat mengucap di akhir kalimah... amin... oh yer, walaupun 1st time dengar lagu ni, tiba2 air mata mengalir... hehe... best2... :)

tired...

tired...
had a long day today...
brunei relatives pay a visit to our humble little home...
sent pak mer to klia with the family... *all family member were there* :)
went to carefour...
bought a new pants...
went to alter the pants...

bank-in my insurance money...
updating this blog...
watching friends...
got to get ready to my cousin wedding tonight...
cya later...

alan

p/s:- i dont know why i'm tired... maybe i'm getting old... haha... :)

Khamis, 26 April 2007

Kau Ilhamku

Beribu bintang dilangit
Kini menghilang
Meraba aku dalam kelam
Rembulan mengambang
Kini makin suram
Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah...

Sedetik wajahmu muncul
Dalam diam
Ada kerdipan ada sinar
Itukah bintang atau rembulan
Terima kasih kuucapkan...

Izinkan kumencuri bayangan wajahmu
Izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu
Maafkanlah oh...
Andai lagu ini
Mengganggu ruangan hidupmu
Kau senyumlah oh...
Sekadar memori
Kita di arena ini
Kau ilhamku
Kau ilhamku...

family dinner...

last night, the zed clan had dinner...

it's been a while we had a dinner with all the family members...

plus pak mer is going back to new zealand on friday...

so the dinner is to say goodbye to pak mer in a way...

nearly can't make it, but i decided to attend the dinner...

we had our dinner at sakura kristal at melawati...

there, we were joined with the newly weds and later apit n sheemi came along...

dinner was good.., i ate this salmon thingy with a lot of salad...

so not me... some of them pity me because of the wrong choices.., haha...

then, they decide to share all the yummy stuff with me...

sharing is caring... i might say...

thanx guys... you're the best...

looking forward to the next dinner...

but, not sure when we're all can gather again...



:/



Rabu, 25 April 2007

How To Save A Life

Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness.
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I know how to save a life...

Let him know that you know best
Cuz after all, you do know best...

Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along.
And pray to God he hears you...

karmic justice...


what goes around goes around... so true... this morning the company car can't start due to battery problems... being a sport i lend my car to the driver to fetch the admin akak to work... ok fine... then the driver asked me to send some people to the site office while he fix the problem... being sellfish and all that, i said no... i got to go to the marine base because service boat is waiting... i rushed to buy some food and getting the permission from north port to bring some equipment for monitoring purpose... suppose i did it it yesterday... yes, i tend to do things last minute... sue me..! then i went to marine base just to find out that the service boat wasn't ready yet... damn..! hurm... i think i deserve it... it would be a different story if i was unsellfish and sent those people to the site office... i don't know... a very good lesson learned indeed... move on... :)

Selasa, 24 April 2007

Hapus Aku

Tuliskan kesedihan
Semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan
Dan kita kan bicara dengan hatiku...

Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta...

Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku...

Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku...

monsta..!


Abhorrent, Livestock-Abducting Nightmare from the Zodiac Enchanted Dungeon


Get Your Monster Name

Mimpi Yang Sempurna

Mungkinkah bila ku bertanya
Pada bintang-bintang
Dan bila ku mulai merasa
bahasa kesunyian...

Sadarkan aku yang berjalan
Dalam kehampaan
Terdiam, terpana, terbata
Semua dalam keraguan...

Aku dan semua yang terluka karena kita
Aku kan menghilang
dalam pekat malam
Lepas ku melayang...

Biarlah ku bertanya
pada bintang-bintang
Tentang arti kita
dalam mimpi yang sempurna...

merdeka..?


bola...? english premier league...

lagu..? dewa 19; indon...

kartun..? anime; naruto, jepun...

tv..? heroes... america...

sedih kan..?

:(

Starlight

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die...

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms...

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to reignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive...

But I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away...

i'm twisted... hehe...


How evil are you?

Isnin, 23 April 2007

Lips Of An Angel

Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel...

weekend highlights...

this is a short one...


had a blast last weekend...


some highlights:-




  • met up with her; even a short time really worth it... :)


  • taiti / poker nite at nz with the usual suspects...


  • man utd drew with boro... hehe...


  • lepaking at starbucks klcc with ma bros...


  • watched rugby match between ns wanderers n penang all blues... (ns won and advanced to the final...)


  • watched a malay movie titled, "jangan pandang belakang" (okay la dat movie cuma pelik ar wats da buzz about it... heh..!)


  • have a nice dinner at my fav satay stall somewhere in datuk keramat...


  • chelsea failed to seized the oppurtunity... *sigh*


life is good... :)

Sabtu, 21 April 2007

Bukan Diriku

Walau ku masih mencintaimu
Ku harus meninggalkanmu
Ku harus melupakanmu
Meski hatiku menyayangimu
Nurani membutuhkanmu
Ku harus merelakanmu...

pesan ayahanda...


here and then,

my dad always text me with kind words of wisdom...

here's a sample of it...

"sentiasa mulakan, sesuatu yg baik yg hendak dilakukan dgn bismillah... dan alhamdulillah."

"untuk menjadi insan yang berjaya, kita perlu sentiasa menambah ilmu, memperkasa jiwa dan memperbaiki penampilan diri."

"kita ada dua mata dan dua telinga dan hanya satu mulut. ini bermakna kita seharusnya perlu lebih banyak melihat, memerhati dan mendengar daripada berkata2."

"4 perkara yg akan disoal di hari kiamat nanti: umur pada apa dilakukan; masa muda pd apa dihabiskan; harta dr mana dpt dan pd apa dibelanjakan; ilmu pd apa diamalkan"

"rukun iman 6 perkara. tidak beriman seseorang itu walau ditinggalkan 1 perkara."

"tiga perkara yang selalu dikaitkan bersama: patuhi perintah Allah dan rasul; sembahyang dan membayar zakat; berbakti kepada ibu dan bapa."

"siri 1: motivasi diri, hanya 20% skill dan knowledge, tetapi 80% attitude."

"harap ingatlah nasihat ini selalu, 'jagalah Allah, nescaya Allah akan menjagamu'"

"pemikiran ini ada3> 1. pemikiran perdana dari cendikawan 2. pemikiran sederhana dari orang2 biasalah 3. pemikiran tak guna semua orang boleh bagi ma..."

"95% of failures come from people who have a habit of making excuse. making excuse & blaming others are habits you can do without."

amacam..? cool tak bapak gua..? thanx dad... notes taken... love ya...

alan

Collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide...

sengal...


dear blog,

i messed up today...

she came over..,

supposed i should ask her out or sumtin...

lunch maybe..?

tapi tidak..!

aku telah menyengal...

masa dia nak blah pun, macam ada sesuatu yang nak diucap...

tapi x terucap...

argh... damn..!

i got my own reason...

first duit takde... biasa la tengah bulan... haha..!

second... dia gf orang... x kan wa nak masuk line kot..?

third... wa dah anggap dia macam adik tapi sebenarnya tidak..?!

fourth... dia datang ngan kawan dia, so aku rasa x elok ar kawan dia balik sorang2...

fifth... i'm out of reasons...

we exchange hugs n kisses...

and say our goodbyes...

dia nak pergi umrah, so aku pesan, "nanti sampai kat saner, doa yang baik2..."

dia cakap, "okay, nanti saya doakan abang cepat2 kahwin..."

aku cakap, "saya kahwin lambat lagi..."

dia pun jawab, "kalau macam tu ada can la saya..!"

aku ternganga...


moral : simpan duit di kala kecemasan... ;)

Jumaat, 20 April 2007

Dirty Little Secret

When we live such fragile lives
It's the best way we survive
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know...

main pengsan2 aka main dragon...

korang pernah main pengsan2 tak..?
aku pernah...
masa tu aku form 2..,
benda ni ada sorang form 5 ni perkenalkan...
so, dengan yakin adik2 form 2 pun mem'follow' la kan...
caranya..?
bahaya beb...
let's just say dat the oxygen x sampai ke otak...
and you're unconcious... (betul ke aku eja nih..?)
aku try 2 kali jer... hehe...
first time mase form2..,
lepas habis meeting blok,
time to lights off la kan..?
aku, doraemon (mohd najib abdul rahman) dan beberapa rakan yang lain gatal2 la main benda alah nie...
aku meng'offer'kan diri...
tiba2 terase gelap...
sedar2 hampir satu dorm dah kerumun aku...
aku tanya,apa hal ni..?
sorang brader form 4 ni bercerita..;
masa aku pengsan..,
diorang ingat aku main2...
sebab aku dok tersengih2...
so x de la orang nak men'secure'kan diriku ini...
tiba2 aku jatuh landing kat lantai...
head first..!
bergegar gak ar blok f tue...
tu yang aku sedar2 orang semua dah kerumun tue...
hehe...
sian emon (nama manje doraemon) kena 'court' ngan form 5...
terus main pengsan2 aka dragon ini diharamkan...
aku pun x pasti camne ntah nama dragon ini timbul... heh..!
form 3, game ni resurrect balik...
saja gatal...
time ni aku di'secure' dengan baik sekali...
siap ada tilam beb...
aku punya pengsan paling tenang sekali...
budak2 ni kata la kan...
ada sorang member tue lagi best;
masa dia pengsan, tiba2 dia bangun dan menyalak cam anjing...
mula2 terkejut gak ar...
pastu kitorang cover line gelak puas x hengat punya... hahaha...
lawak giler siyot...
lepas tu mamat tu x caye bila kitorang cerita balik kat dia...
hehe... suka hati la kan...
ok ar sebagai moral; jangan main pengsan2...
bahaya beb..!
haha...

Rabu, 18 April 2007

big as the sky

Would you hold my head up high?
Would you make my life as big as the sky?
Would you spend the rest of you life with me?
What can i do, what can i say
To make you feel the same way that i do?

which one are you..?

there are 5 types of people during high skool..,

which one are you..?
  • jock
  • prom queen
  • loner
  • geek
  • friendly

i would like to say dat i'm a friendly geek-jock hybrid in my terendak years...

the reasoning

  1. i can be friends with all type of people; even ko gangster maktab or bpp...
  2. i like to spend time in the computer lab...
  3. i played handball for my college... hehe jock ke..?

hurm, i'm done... :)

Hide and seek

mm what you say
oh that you only meant well, well of course you did
mm what you say
mm that it's all for the best, of course it is
mm what you say
that IT'S JUST what we need, you decided this
mm what you say
what did she say?

my wish list...

i. kasut futsal - giler lamer nak beli, tapi x beli2 gak... doink..!

ii. liverpool candy silver shirt - last aku tengok ada brader ni pakai masa aku darjah 2... boleh...?

iii. a lavender polo shirt - lavender is the new pink... :P

iv. weezer blue album - old memories never fade...

Selasa, 17 April 2007

The Mixed Tape

Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I conduct a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I'm cutting through you track by track
I swear to God this mix could sink the sun
But it was you I was thinking of

And where are you now?
And where are you now?

And this is my mixed tape for her
It's like I wrote every note
With my own fingers

my kak bib's wedding...

hurm... where should i start..? the truth is i'm kinda sad to let my sis go... things will not be the same again... she's a married woman... she's got her own life... luckily she will be around cause she moved not too far froum our house... "kek belakang umah jor..." kad jemputan sebulan sebelum dah diberi... hanya 3 orang jer yg aku bagi by hand... sorang x dapat cuti... sorang ingat hari sabtu... sorang jer yg datang... thanx yon... selebihnya aku jemput either by phone or ym... hehe... high tech beb... human will always be human... even ko suruh diorang rsvp sebulan sebelum, they still do it in moment of last minute and still can't make it... demmit la... *sigh* i got 2 tables for my sis reception... only 1 table filled with my friends and the other one was empty... luckily ishi's friend feel the blanks... thank you ishi... i owe you one... sempena adik aku kahwin, aku cuti 3 hari, yer la nak tolong apa yang patut... nothing much tho; cause my sis took care a long time ago... the akad nikah was in the morning of friday 13th april 2007... a lot of touchy moments... even air mata of seniwati could dropped... haha... my dad decided to do the akad himself... with only one breath, i got myself an adik ipar... then lunch and break for friday prayers... oh before that i even berlakon to do the tepung tawar thingy... then i decided to lazying around untill the night reception... then me n pak mer got to fetch up ishi at damai lrt station... and off we rushed to the reception hall... all in the reception was good... got to met up my friends from terendak, utm and even work colleagues... kind of tiring just to make sure everything is allright... even tho my job is to make sure all the guest got their tables n seats... the most annoying thing when i'm being asked, "bila lagi..?" dengan selamber wa jawab, "lambat lagi kot..." or "lambek laie..." to my ghembau relatives... hehe... the scary thing is i'm not ready yet... even my mum suh aku kahwin umur 30... haha... lek dulu... enjoy... kang dah kahwin x kan nak enjoy lagi kot..? khinzir makan pengat; sendiri mau ingat la brader... as conclusion, i would like to say dat i'm very satisfied with all the executed plan... props to kak bib, mum, dad, families, relatives and friends... all the drama, sweat and tears are freaking worth it man... last but not least, congrats sis; nur azilah zainul abdin... and welcome to the family bro; mohd irwan bin ridzwan...

Say It Ain't So...

I can't confront you
I never could do
That which might hurt you
So try and be cool
When I say
This way is a waterslide away from me
That takes you further every day
So be cool

Rabu, 11 April 2007

the return of mr tengkuk...

yesterday i went to klia... adik wa balik dari nz,actually dia transit kat brunei, 2 hari lak tue; sempat la dia melawat my auntie kat sana and beramah mesra dengan dayangku dan awangku aka my cousins, haha... 8.45 pm baru gerak dari site opis, balik chalet, mandi tup tap tup tap; siap terus gerak gi klia... dengan berbekalkan ali cafe dan kopok lekor sebagai pengalas perut, oh yeah my assistant dah balik dari ganu kita... masa tengah highway, my dad call kata flight en. mohd azmir zainul abidin (nama sebenar) pukul 10.30 sampai, so dengan pantas dan tangkas wa drive... 130/140 jer, ok ar dengan kembara ole skool, haha... arrived kat klia lebih kurang 10.30 cam tue, cari parking and all that, call my dad n met up; my mom pun ada sekali... so we hang a bit n chat sementara menunggu... feel a lil bit dissapointed cause my other siblings can't make it... hurm, maybe they got something important to do... pak cik la terhegeh2 gi klia dari port klang kan... "blood is thicker than water"... maybe it's just me, i dont know, move on... tunggu punya tunggu, dalam pukul 11 lebih, baru la pakmer (nama wa panggil dia) memunculkan diri... mula2 wa x perasan, sekilas pandang, hampir x kenal aku kepada adik ku ini... lepas tu ada sorang mamat ni usha aku semacam, lah pakmer rupenye... siyot... i let my mom melepaskan rindu pada anaknya itu... then my turn... haha... agak anti-klimaks sebab bapak den buleh nunggu kek ketiboan domestik lak... aduhai saliha (pahal mawi enterprem?) terpakso la den poie panggey bapak den tu ha... aiyo ai... pak mer still camtu gak... walau pun semakin tinggi dan rambut panjang, er watsup la oversea student suka bela rambut..? haha... perangai x ubah2... walau setahun x jumpa... sempat la berbual dengan dia kejap...sebab diorang balik umah, wa balik port klang... hari ni ada meeting... pagi petang pulak tue... haiz..! oh yeah, masa kuar lif, entah camne troli yg pakmer bawak bagasi dia tue leh terlanggar my dad's buku lali plak... memang x pedih la kan..? wa pernah kena... sakitnya tuhan jer yang tahu... mak wa boleh tanya sakit ke tak..? sabor je le... being the man he is, ayah continue walking even terhincut2... he dont want to spoil the moment... i just knew... dad, i love you... you the best..!

welcome back bro..!

Isnin, 9 April 2007

jiwangness tahap cipan...

I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life...

Sabtu, 7 April 2007

Pabila bintang biru...

Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue...

Jumaat, 6 April 2007

the senior year

woo hoo... form 5 beb... setelah 4 tahun menunggu... akhirnya tiba la masa kitorang 'memerintah' maktab... hehe... actually masa form 4 sem 2, peralihan kuasa telah berlaku... form 5 dah lepas jawatan kepada kami adik2 form 4... konon nak concentrate spm katanya... ok enuff bout dat... mula2 macam x caya jer masa jejakkan kaki for the first day as a form 5... kitorang siap gelak kan diri masing2 sebab rasa cam x layak jer jadi form 5... haha... or maybe mungkin x puas honeymoon masa form 4 kot... i don't know... hurm... dis year aku masuk blok C... C13... roomate aku adalah encik ikan aka ahmad khairy bin amat zainy... yeah i'm good with names... mate aku ni dapat nama ikan sebab budak2 kata muka cam ikan... boleh..? sungguh kejam orang yang memberi nama itu... haha... dulu masa aku junior dulu, blok C dikaitkan dengan budaya gengsterisme di sekolah kerana kebanyakan pailang2 skolah dok kat situ... hampeh..! aku pun x pasti adakah kerana sumpahan blok tersebut atau diri sendiri terasa diri cam best pabila menjadi form 5... habis budak aku belasah... nyaris kena buang beb... nasib aku baik sebab aku pelajar harapan sekolah... harapkan pelajar... pelajar x leh harap... LOL..! so dengan gagah nye aku mengadap pengetua time tue, en. shahein b mohamud (again, good with names...) untuk sesi roti panjang dan kaunseling... dua tiga lapis gak ar seluar pendek, sluar kecik aku pakai... tapi apakan daya, bontot den totap podih kono sobat... adoi...!

to be continued...

the one tree hill theme song

If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situtaion-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody
I don't want to be
Anything other that what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

the loneliness

lately
been thinking of her
i dont know why ?
call her yesterday
just want to confirmed things
she said will confirm today later
hopefully she can make it
just want to see her
again
kinda missed her tho
oh god, pls help ur tiny servant
survived another day
amin

Khamis, 5 April 2007

the medical checkup

recently i went to a proper medical check-up, siap amik off day lagi...

thanx to a work colleague yang bagi free kupon for the checkup...

ke dia takut nak gi sorang2..? hurm no komen...

here's what i learn :-

i. my blood is O+, i'm a universal donor
ii. my left ventricle of my heart got a higher voltage... apakah..?
iii. i'm overweight... about 17 kilos... haiz...
iv. i've got high cholestrol and uric acid in my blood...


here's what the doctor ask me to...

a. stop smoking...
b. eat healty...no high cholestrol food and seafood...
c. exercise regularly...


here's what did i do...

1. keep on smoking...
2. makan x jaga... belasah jer..!
3. exercise..? apa itu..? haha...


morale: health is wealth... :)

the gamer in me...

age: before standard 6
console: micro genius
game: contra (30 nyawa beb...)

age: standard 6
console: super nintendo
game: street fighter (main kat yow chuan... hehe...)

age: terendakian years
console: pc
game: sensible soccer & fifa (gila bola..!)

age: utm years
console: pc
game: championship manager (perasan nak jadi manager...)

age: early working years
console: online gaming
game: knight online (best giler game ni... sumpah..!)

age: nowadays
console: pc
game: cm online, puzzle pirates, o2 jam n magic online (main masa bos takde...haha..!)

age: future..?
console: ps3..?
game: world of warcraft...? (hurm nak main ke tak nak..?)

majulah gamers untuk negara... sekian...

Rabu, 4 April 2007

the mintak mahap song...

i'm sorry for what i did, i did what my body told me to, i didn't mean to do your harm...

Isnin, 2 April 2007

the best local band...

saya ini pun bukan sempurna, tapi saya tahu... dosa dan pahala ku tuhan saja, tuhan saja yang tahu...

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